Foyan's "You're still annoying yourself!"

In the old days, when I was in the school of my late teacher, I once accepted an invitation to go somewhere. On the way I ran into a downpour and slipped in the mud. Feeling annoyed, I said to myself, “ I am on the journey but have been unable to attain Zen. I haven’t eaten all day, and now have to endure this misery too!” Then I happened to hear two people ranting at each other, “ You’re still annoying yourself!” When I heard this, I suddenly felt overjoyed. Then I realized I couldn’t find the state where there is no annoyance. That was because I couldn’t break through my feeling of doubt. It took me four or five years after that to attain this knowledge.

This particular bit from Foyan left me confused. Can we talk about it?

• Why does Foyan seeing other people being annoyed and in a rant make him feel overjoyed?
• Why can't he find a state where there is no annoyance?

GreenSagua. Not GreenSage.

Submitted May 12, 2023 at 01:37PM by GreenSagua https://ift.tt/xhYH0kS