How to be Zen and a more positive person in social life or around family and friends? Instead of negative/egotistical

Recently I have been observing myself growing in a direction where I am becoming more aware of the subtle functionings of the world, myself, and everyone else. My interest in Alan Watts's discussion of Taoism led me here as well as his discussion on Zen. I have been making some sort of progress in building my personal understanding of the functioning of my experience beneath all that I believe, my biases, my "ego", and the abstract web of ordinary problems I have involved myself in in my life.

So my newfound growing perspective has led me towards a spiritual awakening where I come close to seeing what really seems to be closer to the fundamental experience of reality. When I'm exercising in nature, I run on the beach and in the woods, I feel like I'm getting a glimpse of what the sights and sounds of nature represent - the patterns or vibrations that exist in harmony with all of nature allowing it to exist in a state that is so beautiful and perfect.

But this growing perspective I am carrying over into my personal life - and I start to really notice in myself feelings of uneasiness in that so much of the world exists in a state outside of harmony, outside of the beauty I see in nature. And this really is tough for me to accept. Growing up I was told that we are all children of God, and now I feel like I have had some sort of direct spiritual experience of what that means - with the knowledge of science, evolution, and ecology - and the direct experience of meditation in nature coming to a closer understanding of the functioning of the natural world and myself and all others as a member of that.

So despite all of this, I still get myself wrapped up in all of the negative banter that humanity is capable of. I choose to act out of insecurity instead of not acting at all. I feel "superior" to others in the sense that I see people who are confused, or spiritually unaware, mindless, and myself as someone unable to help them. I realize how stupid this sounds, it's just something I've observed in my own "ego". My question is, I want to become someone who knows how to calm a situation down instead of add to the negative energy. I want to be able to just know when to be completely silent and to listen, and when to say something that is genuinely positive and uplifting and helpful, in order that more of what I do and say reflects positivity instead of negativity. Does this make sense? Where can you point me torwards better understanding of how to get out of the rut of poor social behavior in which I can't help but be negative, egotistical, or insecure, and can actually start directing my spiritual awareness in a very positive direction through my social/friends/family life?

Submitted October 12, 2020 at 03:50AM by S9P61 https://ift.tt/2GN7E0a