Hello

This is my first post here. If it’s deleted, ok, but I just wanted to introduce my self.

I am not a Zen Buddhist, I’m just here. I don’t want to label or name this. I have no testament or vision I’m dying to share ;) I suppose I seek challenges and to meet others serious about knowing their natures authentically and nakedly.

I have not always been open. I grew up an Evangelical, ooof. I’m in my mid 40s and not much of a social online person. I went on my journey until...I don’t know what really. I saw my experience resonates with some Taoist and Zen texts I had read. Read a lot over the last 5 years, I don’t remember much.

I was reading Radical Zen though, and Joshu spit in my face, I was like, more of this, yes. It was a moment I had a very powerful reaction to.

I am not religious. I am not a mystic. I have my experiences. I don’t need to say anything about them. I am here. I appreciate the moderation here and the time to put together the reading lists.

I had read some of the texts and I just finished Instant Zen. I am in the middle of Zen Essence and just started the Book of Serenity.

I thought I knew what Zen was and was Zen. Foyan, man, whoa. Like what?!

I’ll just save the AMA and slaps and say...

I don’t know shit.

Not a fucking thing.

And for the first time in my measly life, that’s enough, it’s awesome even.

And I’m not trying to kiss anyone’s ass here, I see a lot of Zen slapping going on here and a lot of people not understanding. Can I say, that’s kinda beautiful.

I don’t agree or disagree with anyone here, but I see some fine quality. I don’t know what comes next, but I’ll do the work. I’ll read all the texts and let them wash over and through me and ask as I go if I feel to.

Oh, I’ll add. I kinda on my own tuned the Buddhist stuff out, but I feel it’s not black and white, it’s all grey to me. And I find time in my garden better than any time sitting and starring at blackness, but what do I know?

Peace.

Submitted May 02, 2019 at 07:30AM by garzparz http://bit.ly/2VFEXHU