a little while back i had a strange experience. ended up in a mental hospital for awhile, but i believe satori was involved. anyhow, might not have been satori, because to my understanding it is the divider in zen practice and i was under the impression it had permenant effects.
i remember what happened. i remember how i felt. my doubts in thien teachings dissipated and i get the gist of this whole buddha thing alot better now, but i dont feel euphoric about everything anymore. when i was going crazy/possibly having a satori experience, i felt as if everything was perfectly imperfect and was ecstatic to be alive. that toned down, but im not as depressed as i once was
should i just try again? sorry for the I and My but i just dont have the heart to type this out in my shitty impression of a zen master at the moment
Submitted June 14, 2020 at 07:19PM by yellowmoses https://ift.tt/2B3iqfw
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