I feel bullied and harassed because I'm too scared to stand up for myself. I'm scared of physical confrontation and I just freeze when I see tall and muscular people. I feel like I'm powerless and I can't do anything to protect myself.
I feel like I tried everything in my 21 years of life and I always was weak always. I tried so many things to become stronger and I never became strong. I don't know how to be strong from mind. I hope I have that mindset. I don't know how to gain it. I feel less confident it's like I always failed in past despite trying my hardest to be strong. How can I ever be strong again when I never succeed no matter what. I am just feeling so weak and incapable to survive unlike everyone else. I always wanted to hero, warrior, fearless, brave like the anime characters I watch. But I am nowhere near them. I get scared easily. Now I don't even feel confident in watching it because they are so strong, courageous, brave, fearless, fight near death and I just duck out from smallest challenges. I tried to watch that anime for confidence during that time and I still get scared and now I lost confidence no matter what I do I will still be so weak. I feel like I have betrayed myself, my family, my loved ones by being so weak. They always advice me to not be fearful and I acted like this. I feel like I will never be able to be strong at all. I see Luffy fight the strongest in the world. He's nowhere near close to his strength. I grew up admiring them. And I don't feel as strong as them.
I want to be strong and feel like I have power in this world. I want to feel untouchable and not be scared of anyone. I want to be brave and be able to stand up for myself. I want to be the one in control and not let anyone push me around. I want to be able to defend myself and not get taken advantage of. I want to be respected and not be seen as a weak person. I want to be independent and not rely on anyone else for help. I want to be able to protect myself and not be scared of anyone.
I feel so helpless and alone when I'm dealing with my depression. I feel like I'm in a dark, bottomless pit and no matter how hard I try, I can't find a way out. My thoughts are constantly filled with negative and hopeless thoughts, and I have no motivation to do anything. I'm tired of feeling this way and I don't know how to make it stop. I'm scared of what the future holds and I can't seem to find any joy in life. I feel like I'm a burden to everyone around me and I don't want to put them through the pain of dealing with my depression. I don't want to talk to anyone about it, because I'm scared of being judged and misunderstood. I'm scared to ask for help because I don't want to seem weak. I want to be able to take control of my life and be able to find happiness, but I don't know how.
I feel so overwhelmed and exhausted when I'm dealing with my depression. I feel like I'm stuck in a never-ending cycle of sadness, loneliness, and hopelessness. I can't seem to find any light in my life and my days are filled with darkness. I'm constantly overwhelmed with negative and anxious thoughts, and I can't seem to shake them off. I feel like I'm walking in a fog, not knowing where I'm going or what I'm doing. I'm exhausted from constantly trying to fight off my depression and I'm scared of what the future holds. I'm scared of being alone and I don't want to burden anyone with my struggles. I'm tired of feeling like this and I don't know how to make it stop.
Submitted February 26, 2023 at 01:45PM by Cosmic_Ishan https://ift.tt/eT5ahj9
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