Alcohol

I gotta say this somewhere. Man, I'm about to start going out seven days a week to the bar. I am blessed with a natural aversion to alcohol. I'll never be a drunk. It's just how I'm made. And i love meeting new people.

My friend of twenty years has not been so lucky. He wakes up and starts drinking till he goes to sleep. He doesn't have a job. His mom pays all his bills. He spent a month in icu last month.

He's going to die soon. I've been trying to go out with him Sunday to an open mic where he can play guitar, but it's a trigger for him to over drink.

If I supported him drinking, cause I'm drinking, then I'm no better than his mom, enabling his self destruction. So when I've been going out with him, I've been drinking soda. But it's not enough.

And the only reason he hasn't gotten 86ed from there is because he's with me. It's painful to watch. He's the same age as me, but I'm in really good shape. I date any woman i want. I'm making money. I know everyone is this town.

He can barely function as a person anymore. He almost can't make the walk to the gas station a block away. And his social abilities are completely gone.

I can't save him. But now, I've accidentally become his reason to get out of bed in the morning. But I can't do it. I've escaped many toxic abusive relationships with many women. He has to be treated the same. I have to be true to myself.

Man, if I could just get that guy to go to an aa meeting. I know I don't have the patience to go thru baby sitting him drunk like last night, again.

I'm gonna take a break from him for a few weeks. And I gotta give him the sobriety lecture when he msgs me. I don't want to cut ties, but i can't watch him kill himself.

Submitted September 28, 2020 at 08:10PM by keithcarterarkansas https://ift.tt/2FXAKtr