I’m not sure if this is appropriate to post here, but I’m desperate for some wisdom and advice. I’ve been so lonely lately. I’m 24 f, I’ve been single for 4 years. And tonight I just got rejected by someone I really liked. This is the second time I’ve ever felt genuine feelings for someone over the past 4 years.
I can’t sleep and I keep reflecting and it sucks. I’m hitting a low and I just want it to stop. I feel so scared to open myself up and the times I do... even just a little... just backfire.
I wish I could make this better for myself with some magic antidote, but ultimately rejection hurts. I can focus on other things but the pain is still there, similar to when getting injured. I have to wait it out I guess. it just brings back everything in times like this. All the heartbreak. I’ve been focusing on myself so much, and yet even just letting someone in just a little bit results in this. It’s disheartening, it’s so hard.
I feel like it’s always like this. I get a glimpse of something amazing with someone and then it just... ends. Whatever the reason, I haven’t felt like people have had the patience to get to actually know me and give us a chance before moving on, or away.
Submitted October 19, 2019 at 05:07PM by cykie https://ift.tt/2BoV1Sz
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