My practice has inevitably led to some falling away of delusion as conceptions can now be seen somewhere around the point I begin to see them - not as they arise, but somewhere close I believe. As in just around the time I believe in the conception, do I notice its presence, upon which I can stop believing it by doing absolutely nothing instead of reacting in some way; allowing the conception to simply dissolve away.
I feel pretty confident of what I should do now - I really don't have to do anything at all :)
That being said, I am quite young and really unsure of what to choose as a career path. I have thought of finding some career which requires absolutely no concept forming - but ehh I don't really want to do this. I love being alone, I love being comfortable in a heated space with air conditioning, a warm place to go to every day - as much as it might seem 'ideal' such non-conceptual work is generally outdoors, in warehouses and just really hard work. And fuck me as
a someone very much disposed to laziness of sorts, I kinda hate hard physical work. Plus I have spinal problems that bring me a lot of pain when standing for extended periods.
I want to be a programmer - it really would be my ideal career but is it really something that aligns with the elimination of conceptual states? Coding is pretty much composed of implementing layers of ideas/concepts into something useful. Would this have a negative impact on one's ability to see through conceptions as empty/insubstantial? because one must grasp a conception in order for it to remain - I don't know man I'm pretty new to the whole 'seeing concepts as empty' stuff, but I don't really see how you can both choose to hold onto some states and not others expecting to come to a place free from all conceptions..
I can see how it would be really ideal to have a career that is so mundane one's practice can basically be for upwards of 8 hours a day, but ehhhh :\
Submitted June 11, 2019 at 09:04PM by -_sometimes http://bit.ly/2K82ps9
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