It is time for me to move on from this subreddit. I see now it has and can do me no good, but perhaps harm. Yes, I know, duality something something no teaching something something Masters something something...
There is nothing to gain and nothing to learn. Neither from the students nor the teachers, neither from the scholar’s nor the trolls, neither from the Ewk’s nor the Anti-Ewks. A great swirling of self-effacing egos. Anything to be found in books is available outside this subreddit, and with greater clarity.
Moss grows where the sun least shines. And /r/Zen blots out the sun.
Well, I am one who still loves the sun, who desires to learn, who still embraces attachment, who still values life and all the invented conceptual machinations and dualisms that go along with it.
Attachment is good. Dualism is life. I am a subject who sees objects, as it ought to be.
“You don’t understand, Zen has nothing to do with....”
Yes, yes, I know. Always the contradictions, always the negation, no matter the words.
I seek as much attachment as I can. I set big goals. I seek challenges. I desire relationships. I embrace emotions good or bad. I too have an ego.
The desire to negate this shows a sickness of the mind. It shows there is a pain the mind is trying to escape, or a challenge it doesn't want to face. It is at root a desire for numbness and complacency. There is no enlightenment.
Normal, meaning "non-Zen" people have an intuition for this. They can feel you are compensating for something with philosophical mumbo-jumbo. They are content playing the status game to win. And so long as they believe they have won, they have.
Actual happiness always looks pretty squalid in comparison with the overcompensations for misery. And I’ve come to accept that. Is that Zen or not Zen?
Well then. That is enough words, goodbye.
Give me your best /r/Zen as I go. I expect nothing less from you. ;)
Submitted August 13, 2016 at 07:50AM by MortalSisyphus http://ift.tt/2bn67up
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